England

It's been a really long time since I last wrote on this. As is usual time past comes hand in hand with change. I guess over the last three months I've experienced more change than I have ever experienced in my life. I'm now a law student, I live in England, I've become independent, I've met new people, been to new places, made new friends, experienced new things. And these experiences have also taught me more about life. I think everyone should at one time in their life take a chance and completely change their enviroment. It's part of the process of growing up. The life that I lead now is very different from my old one back home. Everyday comes with a new discovery for me as I try to grow and understand this culture that I live in. One of the things I have learnt is that even when I'm raging away my Jesus is constant and faithful. It was so overwhelming at first to find myself in a whole different world; a world revolving around tea, fair trade, pints of guiness, cues, football and the weather. All in contrast to my old world of highways, hockey games, snow, Tim Hortons, open outgoing people, malls, and open space. But although it was scary and different at first I'm beginning to fall in love with the life I now lead. Yesterday I was walking back from uni and it sort of hit me that I'm actually in England. A life long dream has become reality.
Sure, I still commit social faux pas after the other... to the general amusement of my friends but I think I'm slowly beginning to understand the people here.
To try and describe the what life is like here I should probably begin with a typical day. Unfortunately being a law student studying two subjects means I have a lot of hours. So the day starts at 7am. I have to drag myself out of bed and then trudge down to the dining hall that looks like something out of a Harry Potter movie. Sitting on the wooden benches in a room covered with oak paneling, portraits of wardens past, and several other tired, hung over students I try to get down the typical english breakfast which we have everyday. I pass on the runny eggs, grab a piece of toast and a bowl of porridge and completely ignore the sausage, bacon and hash browns and try not to glance at the baked beans floating in the large tin pan. Having accomplished that, I can now proceed to find myself a mug embelished with the Wills Hall emblem and skip the line or should I say cue of students waiting for a cup of tea while I seek out the jug of milk. Mission accomplished, I consume the bowl of porridge to the great horror of my friend Kelly who thinks it is complete suicide to eat anything like that. Now I have to explain what porridge is. Porridge is what we could call oatmeal except less chunky. It's also sometimes known as farmers gruel but that sounds nasty so we'll stick with porridge. After breakfast I walk back to my room making sure I don't step on the manicured lawn in the middle of the quad. Twenty past nine it is finally time to join the horde of students who are making their way down to uni. Living in Stoke Bishop means we have a lovely 40 minute walk everyday. At first this killed me but eventually I've come to enjoy the 15 minute walk across the vast expanse of green known as the downs and then the trek down Black Boy Hill. If its a nice day which here would mean no rain it can be a great time just to think but if its raining its the most miserable thing. A friend once described the masses of students in Bristol at 9 in the morning as a little army of umbrellas. Funny illustration but quite true. I might take a photo of that some time so that you guys can get what she meant. Anyways, the streets of Bristol get taken over by students at this time as we all try to make it down in time for lectures. Finally we've reached Whiteladies and I step into the magnificent building of the law department known as Wills Memorial Building. Everytime, without fail, I get the feeling of awe. It's an impressive building with huge vaulted ceilings with engravings craved into the ancient stones and the university emblem hanging proudly over the archway. I sit through a couple of lectures about the Human Rights Act 1998 and vicarious liability trying hard to understand my northen irish lecturers accent and trying to keep awake in my tort lecture with the dear old professor with the soothing voice. He seriously sounds like the stereotypical image of an old english grandfather. Lectures over, my friends and I trudge out; now desperate for a caffe latte to awaken us out of our slumber. Off to Cafe Gusto we go. I love Bristol with its little caffes and shops all perched on big hills, and the people milling around all intent on reaching some destination. This place has character which is quite uncharacteristic of a canadian city or town. On the corner there stands the usual jamaican man whistling and dancing around trying to sell "The Big Issue" a largely socialist magazine. Then theres the bag pipe player in his quilt filling the air with haunting sounds of the drones while the homeless man sits in front of the Sainsbury( local supermarket) with a sign saying " I'm not an alcoholic, I'm just hungry" as businessmen in suits and gentlemen umbrellas, mothers with little children and laughing students hurry past. But this pretty little picture would be a lie if I were to tell you that this is all. I'm still gripped by this great sense of urgency. That theres something more than just this everyday in and out. The thing that has been constantly on my mind since starting law school is this huge sense that there is so much more to life than what the system tells me. I feel like everyday I am carried along by the masses, doing the thing I'm supposed to, blindly listening to the urgings of " GET SUCCESS, JOIN THE MAGIC CIRCLE, MONE Y MONEY MONEY!". Yes, I know that I'm studying law for a reason but no one here seems to understand that reason except maybe for a few friends. But even living for a cause is not what I want my life to be. Yea I can go get the degree and then fight for human rights but in the end I will still be left with this great sense of loneliness. There's this urgency that I must have more of Him, that all this pressure to get the grades and make it big, and understand this culture and make the friends all becomes meaningless if I don't have Him. I thought that once I became a student I would find myself caught up in a great revolution, where people dared to dream idealistic dreams and live outside the box but its so far from it. What is wrong with our generation? Do we have nothing left to dream for? Has every battle been fought and lost? I think that this age is not about the fight for equal rights, for fair trade and saving the environment. I think this generation is looking for more than a cause; we're looking for something to believe in. These three months have thought me that everything that I am and will be comes down to what I believe. I was talking to a friend a few days ago and he looked at me and two of my best friends and he said " You guys have something to believe in and I have nothing." Protests and anarchy and revolution are all just empty. Degrees and success and money are nothing. Destiny is everything and the cry that resounds in every young person's heart is that someone will ask us to fight, someone will ask us to stand. Where do we stand ? Where does this life lead to? We were not made to become blind automatoms. One man, one life, onething. This is my hearts desire. That everything I am becomes defined by the man Jesus. That every breath I breathe, everything I do is done because of Him. I will get that law degree, and I will graduate with the marks that society tells me but I will not stoop down and let myself get lost in the crowd. A degree is onething, this love story is another. My generation is crying for something to believe in. And I've found that something. This life is empty and meaningless unless I see His face.

PS: it snowed today. I went a little camera crazy and a my thoughts sort of went off in their own world as you can see. I apologise. I really was intending that this blog entry be light hearted.
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